It's now just over 16 months since you were collected and your soul was taken to another place, today I'm going to be running a virtual Santa Run with Jo who's mum was also cruelly taken by MND.....you will always be a big part of me as I often talk about you especially as because of you........I wouldn't be the person I am today......you taught me so much.......and I will always be grateful for that xxx

People think I will do the GNR easily as I've done other half and full marathons before so many times but I am finding it hard to get my fitness up again after my hamstring injury in December and being on crutches for a few weeks and the weight gain since Steve passed away. Today I did a 2 mile run, felt like I was back to 5 years ago when at the beginners group when I first took up running. At that time I struggled to put one foot in front of the other and today it was back to that time.......struggling and wondering if I am going to be able to do both......lose the weight and get the fitness up but when you hit rock bottom the only thing you have to do is climb back up again. So, I am going to run a sweep stake at £2.00 a go for a £20.00 prize paid by me so all the money goes to MND......and if I do a 2nd sheet I'll pay that winner £20.00......so please click on the link below and give me a time you think I will complete the race in and I will enter it on the sheet........however, don't think I will see a time and think I will go for that.......my plan is to get round the course as best as I can.........I may struggle to run at the moment and maybe on the day but I can recover from it........those with MND cannot 🚶‍♀️🏃‍♀️🧡💙😢 #TakeOnMND #TakeOverMND #MNDA #MNDAssociation #RUNMND #nofinishuntilacure #scrap6months

We're now into the final minutes of 2019 and entering a new decade......I know you are no longer physically by my side but I know my darling that you will continue to be with me within my heart and in spirit.......I know you are no longer suffering but I wish you were still here with me and will love you always until we are reunited xxx

Steve I am sitting here with the turkey cooking in the oven which has lead me to write a memory that came into my head. A few years ago when Anabel lived here, you, as always sorted out the turkey that was your domain.......mine was wrapping the presents and preparing the stuffing, chipolata sausages and veg and cooking them......I remember one night you had had a few drinks on that Christmas Eve and the turkey was cooking slowly in the oven and you wanted to check it.......only you pulled it out of the oven and dropped it......the turkey bounced and the grease went all over the kitchen floor making the tiles slippery like an ice rink.....I have to admit I did tell you off and even yelled at you as I was then on my way to church for midnight mass.......we did manage to clean it all up before I went and the turkey was retrieved and put back in the roasting tin.......and completed but I went to church being asked what was up and telling my mum and Damon......Steve's dropped the f ing turkey and we've now had to clear up all the grease that's gone all over the floor........this year its my turn to get the turkey in the oven and cooked......and I'm missing you as you are not here to ask advice..........but I hope that you are getting ready to celebrate wherever you are and are watching us trying to get through this 1st festive period without you xxx

As we come to the end of another month without you I still cannot believe how this year has panned out. 2019 was supposed to be 'our year' where we had plans to change our life completely and have more quality time together. You're always in my mind and I know I have to appreciate the time we spent together rather than focusing on how further and further the time is going since we have been parted but I know you will always be with me and in my heart.